Will you come & find me or should I go now my love?

Well, I know you're just the same person as you were. You've proven it really well.

Don't let other people's opinion bother you.

Only you can heal yourself and no one else. Even the one who hurt you can't heal what they've done to you. So don't expect 'em to. It will heal itself.

Now is good.

There's something about the future which keeps me wonder. Because I know it'd be extraordinary. Sometimes, I just cnt wait to see whre it goes. Guess i hve to work from now. I. Can. Totally. Do. This. Liswweeeeettt. Lol. To be honest I didn't fixed anything in my brain for my new motivation/inspiration yet for 2013. Kiss my ass la every 1st of Jan we just become someone different, amazing and all of that crap. I can be better whenever I wnna. Okay, that sound a 'lil like a showboat. But hey, I wasn't ready for a change during the 1st Jan of 2013. It kinda felt like just another day, to me. But I guess my 2013 just about to start from NOW. Feelin' so much alive. Looking forward for a bright future, i simply wanna look at my parents with their tears on their cheeck, because they are proud of me, again. Getting a recognition for doing such a noble & sinless thing is the greatest feeling than getting recognition for being a jackass, seriously. Being succesful is easier than being a failure. Inhale love, exhale hate.

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I don't recognise this street.

What's wrong, is wrong.

Us girls

Because us girls, we are created to be beautiful & that's exactly why, us girls, we deserve the best. Nevertheless, nothing comes for free. We have to work to get the best of life.

It drowns the love i thought i knew..

Something you hold onto while going through a beautiful life.

Sometimes its better knowing less than knowing something you don't wish to hear/come to your knowledge/might change a beautiful perspective. Because when you know something (that you don't wish to hear) it will eventually goes to your brain, and too bad there's such thing called MEMORY. So naa, let me not know after all. Let my life, be my life.

Don't be stupid Lisa. Don't be fucking stupid.

Today, is a great day!

Because I own happiness. I don't borrow them.

People really do talk, don't they ? Oh well.

You are not a good friend after all.

I love because I love and not because of lust

Things I should have done.

1. Have my bath. 2. Pray. 3. Clean up my room. 4. Learn. 5. Decorate. 6. Watch all the seasons of HIMYM Well, I just had my bath and prayed. That's a good start I guess. Spend today with him before he leaves to college. God, I hope he'll be fine there. I am happy. In some sorta way, we really complete each other, and that's a nice feeling to feel.

An again.

So, here we go again. One of those vulnarable night. So vulnarable that i decided to blog. I feel like I have to begin my life again. This one, I have a really good feeling that it would turn out beautiful. I was just a little girl, a baby. A baby girl who doesn't feel like she's the same as others. But that ain't matter. That could be good. That is a good thing. Am I still a baby girl? Because I still do believe in beautiful things...my wonderland. Am I a stupid girl for even dreaming I could? I hate to believe that there is hate in this world. That's why I ignore. I was such an ignorant person. I ignored everything, everyone. I have forgotten that I can't live alone. I have forgotten....I ain't a baby girl anymore. The biggies don't take care of me like they used to. I have my own feet, I can stand by myself. It's totally alright. It's cool. Sometimes, I even ignore the one's that matter. Someday, I'll have kids of my own. I'll have a family of my own. I promise I will not repeat the same mistake, I will take care of 'em like the mafia princess took care of her family. Family comes first. Family is everything. I'll start my own beautiful family. You know, I have learn more than enough in life. I have seen most everything I need to see/understand. But there is still more to learn. But I guess I am taking the learning process a break for a bit. Just to digest everything I have learnt from my mistake and just to really understand it deeply. But, how can I understand it if I don't obey Allah SWT ? I wonder. I am really communicating with myself, so that i don't have to lie anymore when he asks me wheather I'm okay. This time when I say I'm okay, I really mean it. I thank God for everything. For the knowledge he gave me. For the way I think, the way I believe. But is it too much to ask a new life again? A new environment, new friends. That's all I'm asking. I don't want to go back. I apologise for all of my past. It's been a year of us. I don't want to stop counting. Don't let me stop counting. I swear I'm good in mathematics. I feel so excited for 2013, gonna burn all of my fear, and let the flame shine in the future. Till then, x.

A dead blog, indeed, again.

Hello again mates ! Been quite long since i last blogged :O So, what is going on ay ? Life is...different. Different in so many ways, angles, perspectives, etc.. I have learnt a lot. And I have worked so hard to give up. So I will never decide to give up. With life. Sometimes, I feel like my life is on 'pause'. Something is missing. I believe I will find that 'missing part' soon. It's like, I am living in a total different life than what I am supposed to live in. I have never expected this. What I imagined when I was 12 years old, were all wrong. But I am so grateful with everything I have now. I'm sorry, but it is not enough yet. Still have to find that missing piece. You beautiful people have a great life, 8 days till Raya, be strong, and put your heads up ! :) xx