Happiness.

Happy. Laughter. I can laugh everyday, every time, every second, always. And I won't let anyone own this laughter. I'll find something happy to do/think of every single day & it's absolutely doesn't have to be about anyone. Life is too short, I won't waste my time being unhappy and ungrateful for what i have. I have doubts. Loadssss of 'em. And it's been bothering my mind. So I've dropped into a conclusion where I will throw this doubts away and just do whatever i want to do, what i feel is right.

Life's great. Life's a bitch. Life's better. Life is a like a roller coaster, it has its own ups and downs. I'm not really sure where I'm at. I do hope for the best. Till then, x.

Que sera, sera.

It means, if it's meant to be, it will be

I have finally decide & made my mind. I think I'm gonna take a break from this social life and concentrate in my life. I do know what I want now. I used to always go with the flow, but to think again, I have to work too! For what ever hit me, life always go on. I believe I am stronger now. And frankly, sometimes I do like to just be alone. I feel calm. :)

=)

I'm such a fool
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I'm such a fool
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I'm such a fool
I'm such a fool

It's like I'm letting myself hurt. Wish I am stronger.

What had ever happened.

I will never leave you

So that's just the truth. Every hello comes with a goodbye. But how long do I have to keep on living like this? Do I really have to be ready for every hello which eventually ends with a goodbye? Seriously? Yeah, who am I to ask. I guess, I just have to learn how to survive. I'm not the kind of girl who's SO LOW. Get whut I'm saying? I'm always..happy :( So when I'm not, I will always wonder..why? It was always easy for me back then because I was so fresh & clean. Not saying I am not clean now..haha just...my mind is getting more fucked up as i grew up.

I was just a little girl. I knew i needed to take care of myself, by pushing people away. I let love down so many times. And now i began to wonder, was it the right choice? I see happy couples here and there, and all I could think of is " I was offered with so much loves, I let it down " I don't know, i guess i wasn't ready. Still am not. But i just miss the feeling of being wanted or having someone to talk to every night. Having those funny fights. Haha lol k, whatever Lisa. But then i guess I'll be okay. I should be a better person day by day because the future deserves the best. And so do I.

SLEEPOVER

Sleepover in my house bitches! Aha. Okay it is the holiday, and to be honest, SO FAR, its friggin-ly borrrreeeddd. Please kill me >( Haha, so i hope tonight's gonna be fun.

So, my bestfrnd is coming home tonight from his Uni. Phew. I hope we will have a great time together insteed of fighting all the time, like we always do. Oh well. Haha. Umm, what else? Oh yeah! Another dead person in my life. Yeah, I'm talking about you alright. You are dead. Who are u ? Oh i don't know, you're just someone dead. Sux heh

Just watched Paranormal Activity 2 AGAIN, haha freaks me out man, thank god my girls is sleeping with me tonight <3

There's not really much to say, because I'm at Aina's house, and my mood is really neutral right now, I'm not emo and all this shit, so not rly a good time to blog but what the hack!

Till then loves, x.

Yes to best friends, no to boyfrnds.

I am currently loving ze life. Enjoying every second of it, breathing the fresh oxygen, well not so fresh but what the hack. I love hanging out with my friends, there is always laughter. All the crazy moments we build together, ho boyy, surely something I'd miss when i flash back in the future. Just can't freaking wait for the holidays and enjoy even more and meet all of my old friends. I miss 'em so so much. Will be also moving to my new house, yippie! No more this 'insecure' feeling, I'll be like 'fuck off' je lah now. Because like, hello, what to worry about? Am thinking better now, glad of it. I dunnu, life is just great for now. If only it would last forever. What a wish. Mmm-hmm

When it all falls down.

You know what, don't even fucking bother to be friends with me when you acted so immature and childish. I don't approve children in my friend list, too young to know about what the grown ups do. I am guessing you just realize how motherfucking stupid you have been. I don't fucking care if you hate me, i don't fucking care if you want to talk bad things about me to your frnds and MY frnds. Because deep down inside you are just so fragile and I'm not fucking scared of u ! You are a pussy, do you know that? If you really ready to be frnds, say it right to my fucking gorgeous face. WHICH I KNOW YOU WON'T. I am so sorry for not acting professional right now, but I'm in a fucking PMS for god's sake! So what the hack! You suck balls. Chow!!

SING

Fuck I feel so good and I just want to shout my asses off! Sing along bitches ! x

Rainbow

So hello everyone! What a good day it is =) haih, i feel so good right. I wish this feeling last forever. I WISH. ( yeah! in you dream Lisa ! ) So anyways! Had a great time today! Well at first I was a bit moody because of some things, but then someone just made my day i guess. :)

Hmm so anyways. My life without a maid
Surprisingly, it's not that bad at all. I feel so much better. I don't rly mind doing these house works. Well i do, but not that much. It's feels good. Mummy cooks again, best part of not having a maid <3 and she's doing almost everything. Haha it's been forever since i last saw her doing all of these stuffs. She seem more happy anyway. So its cool not having a maid.

So i have decided to put all the things that has been bothering me aside, like fo real ! And am looking forward to have fun after end of year exam and concentrate to my SPM all the way. *fingerscross!*

It is so good to know that you're still there. <3

How ya goin

So there is so much going on, internally. I have been so so so so busy lately. Like I don't have the time to play around, hang out, being on the phone 2-3 hours again. I am just having the time with me, myself & I. There is so much to do. I will blog a bit letter tho. Chow loves x

The day the devil was born

It is only 12.08 AM. Some homo just reminded me the date of today. Blame the twitter. And by that reason, i hate today. But I am not going to let it ruin my day. But to think it back again, I have to wake up early in the morning. So that sux. Time, this is the time when I need you to fly faster. As fast as you can. Just please! Love, Lisa.

I feel so dehydrated ! And I feel so lazy to ze maximum ! What the hack has got into me! I need Livita so bad right now, like dude, SERIOUSLY. Someone please kindly buy one for mehh ~ So anyways, my house will be done in maybe the next 3 months. I am honestly, so excited to decorate my room and all but then I am quite sad to leave this temporary house. I have such an amazing neighbors here :( Gonna miss them all. Haih. But in the bright side, my house will be a totally new one. I'm lovin it *parapapapa! 

I am full with plans right now but then I haven't jot down anything yet. Just like a go thru mind plans! Can't seem to do anything with my messy room. Uhh! Freakingly fed up with my messy room. Screw it! 

Sooooo, just got thru facebook. Most popular social network or should i say, used to! Then ho-ho I saw this boy whom I have less interest in. If you know what I mean. And for fucks sake, it pisses me off to see him. I just have a very strong like a dislike feeling towards him now. He is just ridiculous, terrible 'boy', mind-freak, and he is indeed getting stupid-er and he just disgust me a lot and i just don't like him. I rly hate it when a boy acts like a girl. Just too pathetic. I rly wish you'll get hit by a bus or something. Haha.

What's my type of guy? 

This is Clayton. This man has inspired me a lot. He had suffered back when he was only 6 years old. He got bitten up my his folks so bad. So bad, And god, he is very strong. I literally cried when i heard about his past but he didn't. He accepted it, that's that. He didn't do anything stupid like drugs and such. He has such a wonderful heart. And I wish to meet someone like him, someday. 

' A New Day Has Come'

I see the light. But will the light come to me or should i reach it myself? My teacher once told me to 'think positive'. And wohoo, trust me its the easiest thing for me to do. That WAS how i role. Was. She also mentioned that it's easier to START to think positive, rather than falling down...and start to think positive AGAIN. Get what i'm saying? Uhh, the hack am i crapping. Whatever it is, my point is i think i am standing up again and it's not easy. No, it is not. I am finally and seriously want to start it all over again. I hope I can do it. Sure i can, right?

Soo, any hot goss? OH, right. This 'love-sickness' thingy. Love. What is love? I really don't know what LOVE is. But it is surely has always been among the hottest topic of all time. Hmm. To me. Love is just two people having to meet each other and just get along. Get attracted by the physical, touched by the heart and fucked by the mental. Hmm, i some how want to find something like my parents. They are just meant to be. For how worst thngs are, they will always come back to each other. Because that's where they belong to. A place to be. Yeah, i guess that is love. Just a place we belong to.

Not saying that i don't trust man or anything. But, it'd be a pain in the ass if i do trust 'em. It's better to play it safe. But at the same time it's extraordinary to play it by risk. But then, it's too risky. I rly wud sacrifice for my love one, but...i just don't know if I could. Now is just not the time. In the future, just a maybe?

Well, i think that's all for now. Stay cool people. xx

If only you gave me the chance to show you what i really am. Mmm. 

I like to be alone at times. So when i said please dont talk to me/dont disturb , i actually meant it. Because i just dont feel like talking. So please can u just kindly NOT call, text or whatever. It irritates me. Don't tell me i have not warned. 

I am not good in putting words. And if I ever manage to do that, it'd be beautiful. Promise. x

Where there was pain now there is joy .

I feel so angry that i feel like kicking your flat ass

A piece of nostalgia.

I wonder why do you always came back in my life when i've alrdy ask you to leave me. But now i just wonder why haven't you come back again..

Shit happens. And i say to myself "things wud be so much better if its like it used to, when you were around." i miss you :/

Time, please stop :(

I love my friends, i love my family, i love my life ( at times ) haha. I just love all of you guys and i hope you guys love me too (: You are are just the best, im just lucky. *hugs amd kisses!

Pity you, pity you.

You change the way i see you. I used to always see you in a good way, honestly. But not anymore. Ew. You're the one who doesnt have the balls to say right in front of my fucking face that you're fucking 'mad'. For what? Because you can't make your pathetic mind. Blame it on me right? Yeah, sure. We could settle things out, but no. I forgot, you're like what? 8 years old right? OH. You know what, do what you gotta do. You will forever and always just another moron. Oops. I dont give a fuck about the people surrounded by you. Its your problem, solve it yourself. GROW UP, boy. Dont just blame it on someone who you obviously cant get over with.

Stay out. I can't.

I'll never understand, it doesn't make you a man. So what are you trying to prove? I know you.

You don't have to rush on things. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be. Meanwhile, just enjoy life.

Give me back my fantasies <3 

Me love you.

It's funny how life can always relate to songs

What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
I say what goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around...
There was a time
I thought, that you did everything rightNo lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and baby yes I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
Baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
I said, you turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'll never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby I bet sucks to be you right now

I know you want me back
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that's got away
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye

[Chorus]
I used to want you so bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I will always be the, best thing you never had.
Best thing you never had!

I used to want you so bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh I will never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

Goes around, comes back around
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now

Cupcake.

This is cute, don't you think so too? :(

Jules <3

If you love something, let it go.
If it comes back to you, it's yours.
If it doesn't, it never was.

 

ain't this just the sweetest or what ?

look closely, look how the guy hugs her.

So hello again everyone ! wohhh, i think this is kinda like the first time i typed using my laptop :O (being lame) After such a long time.Haha. So there's so so so so much to say. But then i don't know where the hack am i supposed to start. Hmm, so life's been treating me well. Life's won't be a bitch if i don't think it that way. But sometimes, i have to think in that way to treat my heart.

I am back to my normal life. The life where I do crazy things. The life where i laugh here and there. The life where I have my bestfrnd right beside of me. But it's not the same anymore. How can it be the same when you've just been thru the rain? It will only get much better or empty. I still not sure where i'm at.

Akmal once told me. If a guy loves you, he'll fight for you even if he think he's not good enough for you. So here's my conclusion. He doesn't care for me, he don't give a shit about me, im just another goddam girl to him, and whatever love quotes that he's updating is just not for me and I am okay with it. I am better that way actually. I won't be wasting my time firguring how his brain works, duh~ Haha.

I want to study well, get great results. Surrounded by great people. Have a great job. Great finance. Be rich. Living the dream. I want to travel. Great house. Independent. Most important ; make my folks proud of their lil' girl =)

What is life without pain? Nothing. I'm one of those people who are not meant to fall in love yet/ever. I believe in that. Maybe God has other good plans for me in the future. 

Lisab.

I remembered the first time we met. Not really a good intro tho, but then it's funny. Haha. I don't really have a friend back then when I was form 1. So I made some frnds. You & I became good friends. All I can remember is just our laughter. Boy, how I miss those days :( it's just something I'd miss forever. I am very happy to hear that you miss me too. Even if I met millions of friends, you still have that piece of my heart. Still remember our 'lisab forever' ? Yah' it's for real. All I'm thinking right now is how nice it'd be if we're in the same college. My life was so beautiful. I spoiled it. I guess I just need time on my own now and just restart things again. I just want to feel calm and right. That's all. I wish I could let the screams in my heart out. I'm done hoping. My aim right now is just to do all the things I wanted to do. Sounds dreamy. But I'll catch it. I will (:

Good day. :)

I think life is beautiful. Too beautiful that my tears wud fall down, sometimes. The only thing that make life's miseable is us. We're bittersweet. My life was so beautiful. If only it remains the same, my life would be perfect. But its not. But, I won't regret my past.

I wish you had the balls to confront to me. You're so cold.

I wish I didn't let myself. Why did I even let myself. Why..

I need a red bull + panadol.

Thanks for being there for me all the time. Thanks for not giving up on me. You are just simply the best. Love you till the end , brah.

EVERYTIME I try to stand up again, something will always push me down again. Hmm. I lost one pf my family member. Again. Im barely hanging on. It's always like this. If only you knew how It feel :'/

I hate injections! It makes me feel weak, and sleepy and blurry and dizzy and weak! Grr~ I wish I can skip my sleeping time and just wake up with loads of energy. Not gonna happen Lisa. Sheesh.

Chelsea chelseaa

Dear Lampard. I'm sorry If I fail to make it this Thursday. It's not I don't miss you, it's just I haven't buy the tixx yet. But I'll try my best to find it. That's a promise. And you know I don't break promises unless it's necessary. Love you loads, Lampard. Oh and say I say hi to Terry ! Hihi. Traa~

I'm such a happy girl. Sometimes I'm so worried because I'm always happy. I don't feel normal. And when I'm sad..sometimes, it's hard to be happy again. And now I think Im feeling happy again. And I hope I won't be stupid to feel not normal. It's ironic

Youre slowing things up? Well I'm stopping things up! HAHA

Never express your feelings when yre too happy because it won't be there forever.

I miss myself. Good to be back :)

Because this doesn't matter. I don't belong here. Just don't. Need to find that place I belong to. Jengs

I LOVE YOU TAS

I depend on me, myself and I.

All i can feel right now is calmness. And i wish it'd last forever.

I just can't face you anymore.

There is no more feeling left for you, i moved on. What you did to me, it's a heartache.

So goodbye goodbye

I've removed the guy from the past from my friend 'list'. And this doesnt mean that I'm having a hard time of getting over him. YOU? Peh-lease. I deserve something cooler. I've removed him because of his annoying-ness of obsession of lameness. " oh she's the one I love you mwah mwah mwah mwah " cut it off wudja? I GET IT. And this doesn't mean that I'm not cool because ya knawww removing someone from friend list. It's just that I'm too cool for you. (again) if you know what I mean :p

Let the past, just be the past


From the above statement, I've learnt that, when something suck happened in the past, we should forget about it. Some people would say it's impossible. But come on la. Grow up. There is definitely nothing you can do about it. Crying won't make any difference at all. So why suffer? Life is so beautiful. Live forever. Forget the diamonds. Diamonds arent forever. Put love aside for a while wud ya? Most people suffer of love. Why? Because the love they expected won't return back. Zzzzz! Stop suffer people. There's so much things you can love than loving the opposite sex who won't be there thru it all. Yes, I have regrets. My friend once told me that I don't know how make someone feel special...it's not that, it's just that...I don't know..I guess I'm just not a romantic kinda person. To me, saying how special someone is and you really mean it is kinda like..10% of committing. And I don't like committing. It's a waste of energy. Haha. to me, I should only commite to someone who I 101%-ly , with no doubt, trust! And I really hate it if someone says I'm playing hard to get. The thing is..I just don't want you. What are you? Blind? Haha! Okay, that's quite cruel :p

I think it's too soon for a happy ending.

Screw ESPN and my brother -.-

Boy, you just turn me off.

Ohh ohh ohh

You always run. Such a good runner! First you act like you care. Maybe you do. After that, you'll disspear. Then I'll here news about you again. I want to settle things, but you still am running -.- I won't repeat this again.

Chemistry day.

So went to this chemistry day at science negara. It was quite fun tho. Me, Diyana, Luqman, Fitri and Hazim surely had a wonderful time together. Especially with Luqman. We missed him so much since he's gone to boarding school. He did talk ah lot about his boarding school that we had to make fun of him. Haha. Went to the dinasour thingy. Was pretty funny because we dared the dinosaur to fight us when it's not even alive. Dumb. Haha. Ahh, so much laughter. One of those days that im sure I'll miss as I grow up. Anyways, tomorrow I got this hi tea at kepong and I'm sick. I sound terrible. Nicelah kan. Haha. Well. Gtg now. Goodnight xx

Dawai asmaraaa..

There's like this indonesian guy in my house right now, repairing whatever stuff. And he is singing something like "ohhh...dawai asmaraaaaa.." WTF? Hahahahahaahahaha. K now he is still singing. Lawak saja. Anyways, there's this one day which was very funny because Diyana ate muqri's sausage! Jahahahaahaah!! Sound so wrong Kan! Hahahahah! And just now got this pantun competition at my school. Others school were there also. I was quite impress to see their performance tho. Very energetic! But my school got 2nd place. Urgh. So close man. But it's fine. As a new school,we'll take that. Ahah. Oh and I'm soo in love with this one book that I'm currently reading right now. I'm quite surprised because I'm actually and finally am reading a book. Like for once in my life, I have the spirit to READ. Bangga 'seh' . Hihihi. Ah Daymn I'm hungry :( gtg now. Traaa xx

Don't you want to be better? I do.

What a lovely day, it is ! Oh my gosh, I freaking miss my friends. Haha. So I've moved to my new house. I lavv my new temporary house and room. I also love the surroundings. Verray calming :) I think this is a perfect starting of my life back. I mean like come on, we live once. So why waste it to someone who's not worth it. I wish when I grew up I have toans of money so that I can travel! Wutt a dream. Well, everyone have their own dreams ;) hah! So back to my new house. Love the neighbors too! And I can't wait to play at the basketball courte because it's been ah while since I last been active. Daymn, no wonder my ass is gettin huger. Hahahahaaha! So anyways. I still am cleaning up room. Membapak penat. Thought of inviting my friends to come over, but idk. Haha. I always thought that I'm the weird one. But as I explore people I realize that I'm not the only one. And I'm happy for that. Like thank god ! Phew. Hahah. I also won't pretend that I'm happy if I'm not. But. I actually am. So much things I jut realize. Life isn't that bad (:

I feel..

I feel like watching a comedy while eating ice cream. Yum. Ahahh k I'm crapping. But seriously I want ice cream. I heard the banana split is awesome. Hahaha. Omg omg I can't sleep ! Need to sleep! I want sleeping pills. But Nazi la told me that sleeping pills are not good. Hancur harapan aku nak tidur-.- LOL! Okay too much of my craps now. Ahahahahhahahahahh. I feel so haiiii. Ahahahah. Challo :) eh don't want la ! I wanna write write and write. I mean type type and type. Just playin.

Let's pray

Dear God. I've been hit so well this year. Ive lost 2 of my family members forever. I've been hurted by so many people even the people I thought they wont. But they still did. Ive been so good but Things get worse. This year hits me so well. Please, be with me because I really can't take this anymore. Too much shits. I don't think I've even have enough tears a to cry anymore. I also don't want to be sick :(

Good morning world :)

Hello, wutt a good day. I won't cry because of yesterday, I won't think about it. I won't i won't I wont.

Cool guys don't look at explosion

Not this time.

I wonder why I've been so tensed all this while. It's weirdd.. Oh well, who cares. Because, I cudn't be bettah now :)

   Anyways, I've a friend whom i met last year. He's a shy shy cat. Named FARIS ISKANDAR..poyo! :p haha joke. He asked me to blog about him. Hmm, out of idea alrdy..BAHAAHHA. He's a good guy, so far. But verrry shy ehhh. Sometimes, he can be crack, and it's awesome. He supports liverfool the bloodyfool which is not cool. I thought he was quite arrogant when i first met him, but naaaaaa'ahhh, right faris ;)  I know you're proud that I'm blogging about you, Faris ! Gahahahaha, you'd bettah buy me a nice shirt for this. I want a shirt! El o el ! OH YEAH, he's nickname is bobon ! Funny right? IKR !

Till then, xx.



Opps! I'm sorry, there has been a mistake here. He doesn't support liverpool but arsengal. Hah! Even worse.. :p HAHAH joke

Dear, boy.

You are so like a pig. Thnk you.

Trust no one.

"Trust no one". I never trusted those words until it happened to me. Disappearance. One by one.. Life.

Tell or not tell. Not tell..?

Have any of you peeps has experience this? I think, almost all of the female has experienced this? Kay, here it goes. First you met this one guy. Whoever. Day by day you guys becoming more closer as a friend. Then, you heard rumors that he likes you. But you didn't like him yet, you just feel comfortable of being his friend. Then, he confessed. But you told him that you want to be frnds only. AND THEN! You guys..kinda lost contact. And bang ! That was the moment where I realize that I like him back. But then, it's too late for everything because it has been a year ++ since we last had a real conversation and I'm guessing he'd move on. Haha this is kinda funny tho. First he like me. But I don't. Then I like him, but he'd move on. Haha, wutt a life. Soo, technically, I'm not sure if I should let him know my feelings..which is....not really a good idea OR let it be and move on also..which is quite tough to do for someone you have feelings for.

Mistakes by mistakes.

Why do I keep on doing it ? Gosh. This sux. Haven't made it for a while. But as time passes by, I did it. I did that mistake again. And boom ! Boy, did it really dirt a 'lil bit of my name. Even though, what I did it's not a big deal..it is to me. Because I keep on doing it ! I just feel, deep down inside, I'm just like them. Ahhh, you'll never know what I'm talking about right now. I'm the girl who keep things real. I don't have time for games. It'll ruin everything. I'm always the one who says " Ho please, I go for long distance relationship" . But in the end, it's a false. And weirdly nowadays, people who plays ah lot, rly got into long distance. Ironic ! I never wanted to hurt you, but I don't want to lie. How could i possibly love you just like that? I did a mistake by letting you in. In a month, I can't take it. I can't lie anymore. So I decided to leave. I'm confused of myself. I don't even know what I want. Well, actually, now i kinda do. This whole thing hits me hard and I am learning something here. Do you realize that my blog is always about something negative ? HAHA. That's because, this is the only time when I need to express something. Want to hear something positive? I rarely tell about my happiness. Haha. too bad. This is not the kind of ... " you'll never know what you got till its gone " . Definitely no. I know what did i got, until it's gone. And I accept that. I just hope I won't do these mistakes again and again. So tired of it. I have dignity for heaven's sake! P/s : this is not about sex or something like that, dude, come on. But one thing I do believe in, what goes around, always comes around. When I hit someone, that someone will hit me back. But don't get me wrong, I won't die just because of that. I'll live as further as I can. No one will stop me. It's me. I can whatever I want to. Let's just hope for the best of life. Till then, xx.

Hola Amigo !

Whazzi goin on in hereee?! K, I feel so energetic. K, so lazy to blog. K bye.

Fuck your cheap words (!)

Even though you are a guy, I still think you're cheap and pathetic. You should join " The Biggest Fat Liar " , bet you'll be the first ;) I can't believe I even trusted you this whole time. Thought you were my best friend, not anymore. All you do is complain about me, how i change. You know what, there's a thing where we call it GROWING UP, you idiot! I'm growing up. You expect me to be the 12 years old awesome non emotional girl you've met. Good news, I am still the same old girl. Bad new, but not 100%-ly. So fuck it man. You treated me wrong. So wrong. I think I have to blame you on this one. You were the one who started to act such a weirdo with me. If you know what I mean. Wtf is that man? Friggin' gay! I just saw with my own eye balls that you are just as same as the person you told me that you'll never be. Hurts a whole lot. Thank you for that. " I can take care of myself " PFFT, SOOOO FUNNY ! =) I am starting up life back. And I wish you the worse. Audios motherfucker !

Same old Lisa Hamid.

I'm forever and always the same.

Nothing works for me now.

Weirdly, i kinda happy for that? 

Okay whatever. I just hate committing. What for? Still young and fresh. Yes, I just broke up like few hours ago. Really didn't mean to hurt him. But I'm just comfortable being just by myself. I love to handle things by myself. Plus, I've been single since forever, and i got to admit it, I'm so used to it and kinda love it. 

One day, I'm going to find the right one. I know you are somewhere out there, lost. And making mistakes. And nothing works for you. Some times, you just feel so alone. You've been searching for somebody for so too long, just like me. It's just I've stop searching. But boy, don't stop, who ever you are. 

Crap. I got so much to catch up on. Too much. Too lazy to even do any of 'em. 

You know, there's this human being who's still alive and lives in earth that I hate. This human being, loves to hurt and saying shits to me. I've been so patient. And dude, don't go so far. I swear, I'm your worse fucking nightmare. Be alert, bitch. You don't mess with me. F/U

Tralala, so my parents' aren't  home fo the whole night, weehuuuuu. Planning to go out tonight, but some how i feel kind of lazy to go out. My body, omgggggg so freaking cramp ! I hate cross country for this year, only? Haha. Hihi. Huhu. Wtv lisa.

Shot shot shot !

I just realize about how ugly and boring my page is.

Sorry for the ugliness of my page. Cud'nt resist. Wtf? What am i crapping? SO anyway, i have 9-10 homework's, yes I did count. Pfft. Cool-ness. I just vacuumed my room, walao weh. Okay, too much of my crapping now.



Harto

*sigh* I still can't find the answers. What are you trying to prove? Why are you even doing this? It's 100% with no doubt, ridiculous ! Stop it, wudja ? Enough just isn't enough, huh ? You lied. I feel so dramatically betrayed ! I've tried so hard to trust you, but some how, God always showed me the truth. Truth about you. You're just another liar. Just another.. Haih. What the shit just happened to us anyway? What Bruno Mars sang was true, "easy come, easy go. " I have nothing to prove while you want to prove everything to me. For what? We're not enemies ! I am not your competition. There is no camera snapping us. So just relax, wudja? I thought we were close, but I guess I'm just not the one, huh. You hide so much things from me which I've already known by myself. Like pleaseee.. I know everything. Okay, fine. Maybe not everything. But at least 90%. I know you so well and what you are trying to prove are pathetic. So please, do some grow ups. Learn!

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Thing's are getting pretty well now, I'm catching up in everything, thnk God for that. Pheww. So here's the sad part. A friend of mine, Fahimah is moving from me school, that suck so hard. She were always the one whom brighten up things. She's a very  talk active girl and obsessed of making stupid jokes, but still..that made everyone laughed. Even though some times it may be anoyying ( hehe sorry babe, still <3 you :p ) but yeahhhh. A day without her dumb jokes are a nightmare to us, because then there must be something wrong wit her? Haha (!) Hmm so anyway, gonna miss you babe. Your big foot ! Your jokes, your toilet...everything. Hope you'll be fine in your new school. Bye mate :(

A part of my feeling of life. 


Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex ? If you do, i bet either one of you like one of you, don't deny it. Hmm, that's kind of the issue that i've ignore and still am. He once confessed to me that he... me. Then, i got so pissed. I don't want to have anythning with him, i just want to stick with, you know, friends. As in just best friends. So then, i ignored him for months. I was just..I dunnu la (!) Trying so hard to ignore his feelings. But we're fine now. One day, he got a girl friend. And I kinda hate it because I, honestly, dislike that girl because of some reasons. Anyways, as days passed by, they went to a next level which I kind of shocked. Because, you see, my best friend is a kind hearted guy who don't touch girls..kinda type. When he does that, its weird and I'm shocked + emotional.  Fuck emo la. I love to run away from problems, hobby. So i ran away from him. I said   I'm busy, not returning his calls and all. And there is one day where I had the worse day of my life and I was crying so hard and I just felt completely alone. Right on that moment he called. So I decided to pick up the phone because I was desperately in need of someone who knows me the best. Then, he said what is wrong with me and stuff. He also did told me about his girl ( FFFUUU ) haha. I was like, yes, memang saya nak dgr nonsense ni sekarg, tq. Zzz, wrong ! I fucking don't wanna know lah. Then we did argue a lil bit, he was like "what the hell is your problem "  OH and fyi, i was crying -.- Then, i was like " the problem is i don't like you anymore and im jeaaalous. Are you satisfied now? It's not fair when you don't give to do this and that where you did all of 'em. I know you care about me, but I'm not a little girl anymore " Bla bla bla, then i don't remember wutt happnd. Then again, as day passed by, there's this one day he was calling me. And we're making jokes like we always do, haha here haha there, then he said that he wants to make ma boii jealous so he sent a <3 to me on my facebook wall. I revenge to him by saying "hi sayang ! <3 " in his conversation with his gf. Smart 'uh. Ahah, Then fer mins/hours afta that he called me saying that they broke up. I felt terribly guilty because it is all my fault ! His girlfriend were fully jealous. I'm like " Ahhhh man. What a mess, so my falut" But honestly, im 40 % glad on that moment cos no more her muahaha. But then the next day he said to me  " Aku dah kasi phone gf aku balik " And I was like good lah, why wud ya keep it anw? I was kinda trash talk her. But unfortunately then, he said to me " I said, aku dah COUPLE balik, not kasi phone balik " I was like OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHKAAAAYYYY (!) I feel glad also, and happy for him. At least i don't have to pujuk him kan? Hihi, and at least i don't feel that guilty anymore. But some how, I just hate to talk with him right now. Because then, there goes another drama. Zzz, hate it, makes me mad ! So I'm deciding to just call ma boi tonight, at least he wud calm me down a lil bit. Oh well. Adios !

HEYYA

Like whoa ! My blogger is so deadly dead! Haa-haa. Always has been, cool me. HAHA, wtv. Anyways, do you know this is like my 2nd - 3rd blogger? Pfft, suck ah. There's this one guy who once said to me " Sucks to be you huh, Lisa?  " He's so mean to me kan ? :( HAHA, who cares. But people, I will try my best to keep my blog alive. Just like me, yes I'm alive like whoa. Hihi. And so it is 12.30 midnight, I am supposed to sleep because tomorrow is the school day. I just don't know why, but i'm not into anything for this year-2011. Everyone's like so........... NEW YEAR! YEAH! MY YEAR! YEAH! STUDY LIKE YEAH PARTY LIKE YEAH! While I'm like...... SLEEP LIKE YEAH ! (Y) But the problem is its hard to sleep, very hard :( Wanted to buy a sleeping pill but, i don't know man, some say it's not good for the kidney. Zzzz. Hmmmmm, so studies isn't that well right now, and that's my main concern. I am very worried. Huh! Need to get that weirdo spirit which I got last year again. Okay, tht's it, no more play-play, ( well a lil' bit can la) we just stu-di-dy like P-di-dy. Tomorrow mornin' got'ah study Geo, Physics & Biology, complete all chapter 1, I will survive! Cos that's how people with future role, jyaaa. I rule! Haaaaa-haaaaa, not funny ay, k. Blogging does make me feel be'ah. No wonder people do it ! Especially girls, because we're some kind of emotion-retard. Oh well, until then, trying my best to sleep. Traa loves~