All i can feel right now is calmness. And i wish it'd last forever.

I just can't face you anymore.

There is no more feeling left for you, i moved on. What you did to me, it's a heartache.

So goodbye goodbye

I've removed the guy from the past from my friend 'list'. And this doesnt mean that I'm having a hard time of getting over him. YOU? Peh-lease. I deserve something cooler. I've removed him because of his annoying-ness of obsession of lameness. " oh she's the one I love you mwah mwah mwah mwah " cut it off wudja? I GET IT. And this doesn't mean that I'm not cool because ya knawww removing someone from friend list. It's just that I'm too cool for you. (again) if you know what I mean :p

Let the past, just be the past


From the above statement, I've learnt that, when something suck happened in the past, we should forget about it. Some people would say it's impossible. But come on la. Grow up. There is definitely nothing you can do about it. Crying won't make any difference at all. So why suffer? Life is so beautiful. Live forever. Forget the diamonds. Diamonds arent forever. Put love aside for a while wud ya? Most people suffer of love. Why? Because the love they expected won't return back. Zzzzz! Stop suffer people. There's so much things you can love than loving the opposite sex who won't be there thru it all. Yes, I have regrets. My friend once told me that I don't know how make someone feel special...it's not that, it's just that...I don't know..I guess I'm just not a romantic kinda person. To me, saying how special someone is and you really mean it is kinda like..10% of committing. And I don't like committing. It's a waste of energy. Haha. to me, I should only commite to someone who I 101%-ly , with no doubt, trust! And I really hate it if someone says I'm playing hard to get. The thing is..I just don't want you. What are you? Blind? Haha! Okay, that's quite cruel :p

I think it's too soon for a happy ending.

Screw ESPN and my brother -.-

Boy, you just turn me off.

Ohh ohh ohh

You always run. Such a good runner! First you act like you care. Maybe you do. After that, you'll disspear. Then I'll here news about you again. I want to settle things, but you still am running -.- I won't repeat this again.

Chemistry day.

So went to this chemistry day at science negara. It was quite fun tho. Me, Diyana, Luqman, Fitri and Hazim surely had a wonderful time together. Especially with Luqman. We missed him so much since he's gone to boarding school. He did talk ah lot about his boarding school that we had to make fun of him. Haha. Went to the dinasour thingy. Was pretty funny because we dared the dinosaur to fight us when it's not even alive. Dumb. Haha. Ahh, so much laughter. One of those days that im sure I'll miss as I grow up. Anyways, tomorrow I got this hi tea at kepong and I'm sick. I sound terrible. Nicelah kan. Haha. Well. Gtg now. Goodnight xx

Dawai asmaraaa..

There's like this indonesian guy in my house right now, repairing whatever stuff. And he is singing something like "ohhh...dawai asmaraaaaa.." WTF? Hahahahahaahahaha. K now he is still singing. Lawak saja. Anyways, there's this one day which was very funny because Diyana ate muqri's sausage! Jahahahaahaah!! Sound so wrong Kan! Hahahahah! And just now got this pantun competition at my school. Others school were there also. I was quite impress to see their performance tho. Very energetic! But my school got 2nd place. Urgh. So close man. But it's fine. As a new school,we'll take that. Ahah. Oh and I'm soo in love with this one book that I'm currently reading right now. I'm quite surprised because I'm actually and finally am reading a book. Like for once in my life, I have the spirit to READ. Bangga 'seh' . Hihihi. Ah Daymn I'm hungry :( gtg now. Traaa xx

Don't you want to be better? I do.

What a lovely day, it is ! Oh my gosh, I freaking miss my friends. Haha. So I've moved to my new house. I lavv my new temporary house and room. I also love the surroundings. Verray calming :) I think this is a perfect starting of my life back. I mean like come on, we live once. So why waste it to someone who's not worth it. I wish when I grew up I have toans of money so that I can travel! Wutt a dream. Well, everyone have their own dreams ;) hah! So back to my new house. Love the neighbors too! And I can't wait to play at the basketball courte because it's been ah while since I last been active. Daymn, no wonder my ass is gettin huger. Hahahahaaha! So anyways. I still am cleaning up room. Membapak penat. Thought of inviting my friends to come over, but idk. Haha. I always thought that I'm the weird one. But as I explore people I realize that I'm not the only one. And I'm happy for that. Like thank god ! Phew. Hahah. I also won't pretend that I'm happy if I'm not. But. I actually am. So much things I jut realize. Life isn't that bad (:

I feel..

I feel like watching a comedy while eating ice cream. Yum. Ahahh k I'm crapping. But seriously I want ice cream. I heard the banana split is awesome. Hahaha. Omg omg I can't sleep ! Need to sleep! I want sleeping pills. But Nazi la told me that sleeping pills are not good. Hancur harapan aku nak tidur-.- LOL! Okay too much of my craps now. Ahahahahhahahahahh. I feel so haiiii. Ahahahah. Challo :) eh don't want la ! I wanna write write and write. I mean type type and type. Just playin.

Let's pray

Dear God. I've been hit so well this year. Ive lost 2 of my family members forever. I've been hurted by so many people even the people I thought they wont. But they still did. Ive been so good but Things get worse. This year hits me so well. Please, be with me because I really can't take this anymore. Too much shits. I don't think I've even have enough tears a to cry anymore. I also don't want to be sick :(

Good morning world :)

Hello, wutt a good day. I won't cry because of yesterday, I won't think about it. I won't i won't I wont.

Cool guys don't look at explosion

Not this time.

I wonder why I've been so tensed all this while. It's weirdd.. Oh well, who cares. Because, I cudn't be bettah now :)

   Anyways, I've a friend whom i met last year. He's a shy shy cat. Named FARIS ISKANDAR..poyo! :p haha joke. He asked me to blog about him. Hmm, out of idea alrdy..BAHAAHHA. He's a good guy, so far. But verrry shy ehhh. Sometimes, he can be crack, and it's awesome. He supports liverfool the bloodyfool which is not cool. I thought he was quite arrogant when i first met him, but naaaaaa'ahhh, right faris ;)  I know you're proud that I'm blogging about you, Faris ! Gahahahaha, you'd bettah buy me a nice shirt for this. I want a shirt! El o el ! OH YEAH, he's nickname is bobon ! Funny right? IKR !

Till then, xx.



Opps! I'm sorry, there has been a mistake here. He doesn't support liverpool but arsengal. Hah! Even worse.. :p HAHAH joke

Dear, boy.

You are so like a pig. Thnk you.

Trust no one.

"Trust no one". I never trusted those words until it happened to me. Disappearance. One by one.. Life.

Tell or not tell. Not tell..?

Have any of you peeps has experience this? I think, almost all of the female has experienced this? Kay, here it goes. First you met this one guy. Whoever. Day by day you guys becoming more closer as a friend. Then, you heard rumors that he likes you. But you didn't like him yet, you just feel comfortable of being his friend. Then, he confessed. But you told him that you want to be frnds only. AND THEN! You guys..kinda lost contact. And bang ! That was the moment where I realize that I like him back. But then, it's too late for everything because it has been a year ++ since we last had a real conversation and I'm guessing he'd move on. Haha this is kinda funny tho. First he like me. But I don't. Then I like him, but he'd move on. Haha, wutt a life. Soo, technically, I'm not sure if I should let him know my feelings..which is....not really a good idea OR let it be and move on also..which is quite tough to do for someone you have feelings for.